Phone!!!!

Hye and good evening everyone.. Did you fasting today? There's something that I want to share.. Actually, I really2 sad.. I want to buy new phone but I don't have enough money.. When I save it, then I'll spend it.. Actually that thay i already save around rm350 but I've to spend because of my sunglasses .. My friend did that.. =( So, I make a decision didn't want to tell my mom, and use my money.. rm200 of my money gone.. Right now I only have rm200.. That's for my money until I back to KL. 13 days more.. I've to use rm 100.. Which mean I only have rm100 to save.. hmm.. Really sad.. Me and my housemate,both of us desperate want to buy a new phone.. We've the same situation.. She already lost her money because of we use a lot of money for this sem.. Pity of her.. But she is lucky girl, her dad tell her if she get 3.0 an above she will get new phone.. But me?? If babah is here, maybe he will buy for me.. Suddenly, I feel want to cry.. haha.. After his gone, I've to save my own money to buy something that I want.. Yesterday, my mom said to me, what you want for birthday this year? I just say, don't know.. She replied, hp?? I'm really happy that time.. I just type 'hehe'... And then she didn't replied.. hmm.. FOr the first time she knows what I want.. That's because I mention in fb.. That's how she know .. I feel sad when she didn't replied it.. I know that's will never happen, if she buy, she will buy not the one that I want.. I can't get what I want right now.. I never ask my mom to buy something for me, this is the first one.. Can you consider about it mom?? I already give you everything that I could in my study.. Every sem I tried to get Dean List.. Last year, you didn't buy anything for my birthday.. Sedih sgt.. But I never mention it because I'm not the person who will do that.. Can you give a special present for my birthday this august?? I'll not ask you,If I can buy it.. I promise that I'll never ask you to buy anything for me.. I don't care if you didn't buy me 'baju raya'.. I just want that so badly.. Saya tak boleh berharap sgt betul tak?? Because it's not necessary for her.. I'm not qualified to have that one.. Right mom?  Babah, did you hear it? Can you buy it for me?? =( Because of you, I can't get what I want.. Don't you get it what I've been through without you? Mom, If you don't want to buy it for me, can you lend me a money.. I promise I'll pay back to you.. Just lend me a money so that I can buy that phone.. Just this time please understand what I feel.. If you buy me that phone I'll try harder to get the better result for this time.. I already target want to get 3.89 for this sem.. Babah, please pray for me that I'll get that phone soon.. If she didn't buy it for me, it's really hurt me.. Lia, jangan nak berangan dia nak belikan phone tu.. Tolonglah bangun dari reality lia.. Bangun!! You don't deserve for that.. ! hmm.. Btw happy birthday babah..! I hope I can meet you soon.. Actually I already met him.. 12.7.. That day is his birthday, that day too I met him at night.. ^^ Thanks for coming.. Thanks God.. Even for a while, I can talk to him, laugh with him.. I wish I can meet him everyday.. I told him, I'm suffer.. He cry and he said I'm sorry.. I don't need his sorry, I just need him to be here..