Yesterday vs Today

Salam and hye..

It's been a while since I don't post anything.. What happen yesterday and today is totally insane for me.. It's makes me totally speechless.. But the big impact to me is yesterday.. I'm success to through that day.. I'm 19 years old for the first time in my life going to court? What the amazing experience for me.. I'm so nervous that day and I even can't sleep because of all the problem that I received.. Actually, what I'm thinking is Taewoo is the most I loved than other members.. But it's totally wrong.. Now I realise how much I loved Hoyoung.. And now, I know that I loved all them at the same level.. It's really break my heart when people said Hoyoung is a murder. What the hell is that?? You can't talk like that if you don't know anything about him and you don't deserve to said that to him.. HE IS NOT!! Now, you know who's the wrong and who's the victim.. i'm feel sorry to him.. He cry all the night and it's already make me cry but the most touched moment when all god member calls him and cry with him.. Oh God.. That's why they're so special to me.. To my life.. Whatever they do and whatever happen, they will support each other.. They're stick together.. Okay nampak tak dah melencong.. haha.. I'll continue back.. what makes me nervous that day because all my family will gather at that place.. I means my siblings.. Actually, I don't what to mean that but it's all truth.. and I don't think I've them so i don't think I can think them as my siblings.. Right? haha.. Me and my mom what there for 3 hours.. Don't you get what I mean?? Oh come on.. I thought the schedule is 9 am.. But the start was began at 10.30.. We wait there like a fool.. Tak sangka sistem kat situpun lambat.. Sabar jela.. Lepas tu dah pukul 9, jeng2.. Two person step by step appeared infront of me.. Only God knows how I feel that moment.. I talk in my heart, oh God.. I met my babah.. I met my babah here.. That time I want to cried but I just hold it.. Kerinduan , kesedihan yg teramat2lah sakit ini akhirnya lenyap sekelip mata bila melihat dia.. Ya Allah, baru aku tahu yg dialah penawar segala kelukaan hati ini.. Aku tak dapat berhenti dari melihat wajah dia.. Wajah dia sgt2 mirip dengan babah.. Setahun aku menderita, dan semalam adalah hari yg sgt2 bahagia bg aku bila melihat dia.. I really hope that one day I'll meet him again.. Ikram, no matter what happen I've to protect you.. I've to take care of you and your mom.. I'll do anything to you.. That's the only way i can make my heart's life.. You make me keep going.. So please take care of yourself.. Don't get hurt or sick because it's will make me hurt.. i've 5 years to go.. So when it's done I'll take care of you..Now I've a reason to life.. Apa yg buat lia happy sgt bila mama cakap dia sgt2 mirip dgn babah waktu babah umur 20an.. I can tell from that, my mom really loved him.. I can see that she's truly happy to see ikram.. Maybe she miss babah?? i guess so.. Babah, I promise that I'll take care of him.. Lia akn jaga dia sepertimana lia jaga nyawa lia..  I'll try to make him happy.. Apa yg merunsingkan lia adalah harta2 pusaka ni.. Aduiiii.. pasal hartapun nak gaduh ka??? Poning den mcm ni.. I don't want hurt them.. Abang epul, kak tasha and kak shira please.. If I can, I want to live happy with all of you.. 3 vs 2, who's gonna win?? Them or we?? I don't know and i don't want to know.. Troublesome of property..


Today is the day we hang out together.. I plan it and she destroy it.. Haha.. Whatever.. Actually I want to go because of Iron Man 3 but I've a bad luck today, that's why I can't and I don't know when I can.. I guess I'm the only one who's his fan don't watch it yet.. I feel terrible and shame to my friends.. I even can't on my Tumblr and Skype because of it.. I'm so sad, and I even cry.. I'm really sorry RDJ.. I'm so sorry.. But I promise I'll watch it no matter what happen.. Janji melayu macam nila.. Janji 11.30 dtg nak dekat pukol satu.. Aku plg pantang org yg tak menepati masa.. Sumpah annoying gile.. Tapi nak wat cm ne.. hmm.. Dahla tengah bengang lambat, tup2 dia buat lagi sy ni tambah bengang.. What?? She's here?? I'm not ready to face her and I was like damn.. You spoil my day.. But it's okay, it's already happen so I just accept it.. Even I don't feel comfortable but I've to use it.. In my head, knpla kau kena dtg?? knp?? .. Apa yg terjadi kita kena terima kan, jadi sy buat2la ta tau je.. Maybe it's awkward day for today but the truth is it's not a terrible day.. I'm still having fun.. I just shock and I think I'll collapse there.. At least tell me or mar so I can prepare myself.. Ini tidak main serbu je mana tak kena maki hamun dr sy.. Lepas habis makan tu barulah cool down sikit.. Tupun sebaik je mood happy semalam tak habis lagi kalau tak sy terus balik je.. Kesimpulannya buang yang keruh ambil yang jernih.. Tapi peribahasa tu tak sesuai bg sy..