You

People expect that you're always happy, laugh and smile. But the fact is you're not. You just act like you're okay but you're not. You just pretending that you're strong enough to handle that because of him, and them. You can't even tell them that you're not okay because it will hurt them. It will make them sad. So you just keep smiling. Keep laughing. Even though its hard for you, you just hold it. Hold till someone coming and ask you what's going on. But that will never happen. You're so damaged. No one can know your secret. No one can fix it for you. You are alone. You are already dead a long time ago.