No one can know

Someone told me earlier that if you need someone to talk about him, just come to her and tell her. We've same situation and also same feeling when it comes to that particular topic. But I told her, don't worry about that. I can handle it by my own. I barely talked about that to anyone. Even it kills me inside, I rather wrote in my diary. Yes, sometimes it really made me crazy, it's too painful for me to handle by myself but it will always be like this. Maybe I took after him. Maybe my ending will be like him. Became damaged. Impossible to fix it.